summertime sadness

all the things that consumed me in june

June brought me back to a familiar feeling, one I have tried to evade for a long time. Despite that, it returned, as emotions do. We make a deal with our emotions—that we will allow them to consume us, and then we will let them go with the understanding that they will find their way back to us.

• Phone calls with my dad

• Watching corn stalks grow

• Abraham Hicks’ affirmations

• Girl dinner, but for lunch

• French literature

• Photobooths

• Produce shopping at local farms

• New England during the summer

• Cutting out alcohol

• SoulCycle

Bonjour Tristesse by Françoise Sagan

My highlight of June was an afternoon in New York City visiting a good friend. We had very few plans for the day, taking each moment as it came. Iced lattes, brunch, vintage shopping, photobooth strips, and attempts to parallel park.

Making some sense of my never-ending confusion, or making myself feel better about it, rather.

When we entered Cancer season, I found myself more attuned to emotions, both my own and those of the people around me. It only felt right when the summer’s heat felt heavy, almost suffocating, to allow myself the stillness needed to navigate through them. June moved slowly, clearing the energy for all that July will bring. That’s all for now, friends.

All my love,
xx B